As the sun kisses the sky with a new day, one eye opens and the other is shut tight. I lay in my bed planning out my busy day as I listen to my husband snoring loud enough to wake the birds outside. I gaze out my window remembering where I was nine years ago. What an incredible journey and adventure it has been.
I puzzle over my role in my life. Am I a farmer? An interior decorator? A housewife? A mommy? A wife? A tree house builder? An employer? How about the re-purpose queen! My husband tells me that I am “The Queen of Free”. Whatever hat that I choose to wear today, I know that as my size 7 1/2 feet hit the floor I am a woman....feeling, loving, sassy, ambitious, passionate, and even a bit insecure.
As I choose the proverbial hat for the day, I sometimes wish that I had made better choices. So before my toes actually touch down, I give thanks with a tremendous feeling of gratitude for all that I am and all that I have been able to do.
Reminiscing my experiences of old and new are flowing through my mind. I do not feel deserving of all of this. As I recall what I refer to as my “poopy” moments, I know that these are the times of growth, giving me strength and wisdom. I may feel terrible at the time, but come out wiser because of it. Finding that gift in each bit of darkness is what helps us to grow. If you can find your gift in all your own turmoil then you can be free from your burdens.
As my dreams become my reality I sometimes feel so overwhelmed with the joy of it all, I think I might explode with pride. As I continue to reminisce about my life, I realize sometimes my pride is mistaken for cockiness and bragging. Learning to overcome the nay-sayers and sarcasm has been difficult for me, but I refuse to sit in a poopy disposition. We need to love ourselves with all of our hearts. Become your own best friend and your own biggest fan. Because of you this world revolves differently. You are reading this at this very moment in time because it was meant to be. You are beautiful and full of wonder.
So as I ponder what this new day will bring to me, with no attempt to speculate the outcome. It is different for all of us. What will you do today to make a difference in your life? How will you be good to yourself? What steps will you take to do it? What is IT? IT is whatever you need for it to be. IT is waiting for you as you slide out of bed and your beautiful toes kiss the ground.
I am dressed and ready to go to work now. As I open the front door and bounce down the porch steps. I am walking on sunshine. The world is my playground and this chick is ready to do some kart wheels. Hope to see you on my trampoline.
My Name is Gwen
I am a woman of contradictions and a believer that you can do anything in this world as long as you dare to be inspired.